Tuesday, December 13, 2011

One Month

Dear Skylar,

You are one month old! I cannot believe it! Just 30 days ago I held you for the very first time! I could have not imagined how fast this past month would fly by! You have brought more joy to me than I ever dreamed - I am so very thankful that God gave you to us! Everyone keeps asking me if having a baby is what I thought it would be - the only thing I can do is look at you and say - no way! It is so much better than I ever dreamed!

You look so much like your daddy - I put bows on you everyday so you look a little more like me! :) Your baby pictures are the exact same as his, only yours have bows and pink!

You are sleeping well at night, you get up every 4 to 5 hours to eat and go right back to sleep. It seems like you sleep most of the day - but when you are awake you love to be talked to. We read books at least once a day and you are always so quiet and focused!

You LOVE your daddy - you calm for him almost instantly - even when no one else seems to be able to soothe you. I always knew you would be a daddy's girl - you have been responding to his voice since you were in my tummy. I cannot wait to see how much you two continue to bond as you grow. He loves you so much - I have never seen him so proud as when he looks at you!

You HATE having a wet diaper - so much so that you won't even pee and poop in the same diaper! You will wimper until we change you and then poop in the clean on right away - what a stinker! :)

The only time you are fussy is when you are hungry, tired or wet - you are a very happy baby - there is nothing that a little cuddle time can't fix!

You love being on your tummy. We only swaddled you for the first week or so you were home - you hated having your arms in the swaddle and would somehow always get them out! You slept so much better as soon as we let you be on your tummy or side - maybe that is the one thing you got from me!

You are just now beginning to fill out your 0-3 month clothes and size 1 diapers. Some newborn things still fit - but are getting to be too short. I have had to put three of your outfits away because they don't fit - I can't believe how much you have changed already! You were 8lbs 8oz on your one month birthday! Already 2 lbs. 1 oz heavier than when you were born - I am so thankful you are healthy!

You have had visitors almost every day for the past month! One popular little lady! We are finally getting into the groove of being home and daddy's new schedule (he changed back to night shift two weeks after you were born). I know this next month will hold so many exciting new milestones - I cannot wait to watch you grow and learn - but can you please grow a little slower? I want to keep you little!

Your daddy and I pray over you every night - and are still in awe that we have been chosen to be your parents. We hope that you know just how much we love you - but always know that Jesus loves you even more. We are praying that you grow big and strong and love Jesus with all your heart.

Happy One Month, Sweet Girl.

Love, Mommy

First Thanksgiving

This Thanksgiving we have hearts that are overflowing with thankfulness for our sweet little blessing! I never imagined loving someone so much - and so instantly! We were able to spend time with both sides of our family and Skylar was loved on all day!

I cannot go one day without feeling more and more thankful for this baby with every passing second! My heart is so full!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Skylar's Birth Day

Tuesday - November 8, 2011 8:58 p.m. - The day my life changed forever.

Disclaimer: This post is a small novel - and has not been checked for spelling and grammar. :)

Well, let's back up this story train to Thursday - November 3rd - I had my weekly appointment - the first weekly appointment where they would begin to check for progress. Nate couldn't go but my mom was able to - I just felt like I would need someone there with me. Mom picked me up from work around 4 - and we headed to the doctor. When she checked me, I was really expecting her to say no progress and that things were on track for a delivery around November 27th still - instead I heard...You are 4 cent, and very soft - I think we might have a baby tonight - if not tonight, it will definitely be tomorrow!

If you could have seen my face - AND mom's I think that would have said it all! WHAT??!! I was in shock - I think I said - "Anita, are you sure?" At least 15 times and then finally said -- "well, how sure is sure - like percentage wise?" ....she responded with "80% sure." Uhh...That's like a B average in school - right? She told me I was contracting - she could feel it - I thought that Skylar had just been rolling up into my ribs and then rolling back down, nothing hurt - so I never imagined that those feelings were contractions. She told me to go home, walk a little, but mainly rest and to come see her at 9 a.m. the next morning for a recheck if I didn't call her in labor that night.

When she finally left the room - I looked at mom and said/cried - I'm not ready! I'm not packed! Oh my goodness - I don't have this - I don't have that - the house is a mess - I still have a shower to go to on Saturday- she's not supposed to be here until the end of the month - what about work...blablabla....What is Nate going to say?...
Mom just replied - "You are ready, you're going to have a baby!" With a giddy - first-time-Mimi look on her face. When we made it to the car, I called Nate - knowing as soon as I heard his voice I would start bawling - (and I did) - "Nate, Anita said we are going to have a baby" Nate - "I know baby, whats wrong" - "No, I mean Anita said we are going to have a baby - like TONIGHT!" ...."What? Tonight? Are you sure? That's AWESOME! Aren't you excited?! Really? Really? Tonight? Really?!?" Needless to say, he was excited and I was petrified!

Well, Mom went to Target with me to get the last minute things I needed for a hospital bag, (timing the "contractions" at about 9-10 minutes apart) all the while we agreed we would not tell anyone until we knew for sure it was going to happen - I mean - 80% is pretty good - but we all knew that my body NEVER does anything according to the doctor's "normal" plan - I mean after all, I wasn't even supposed to be pregnant....

To make a long story a little bit shorter, I went the next morning - nothing had changed - but she definitely said it could be any day and that I was still contracting. They weren't getting any closer, or any more intense - so I just needed to monitor them - and come back on Monday.

The weekend came and went - still contracting - sometimes they would have a pattern, but other times not - Monday came and we went to the appointment - I was the same, but Anita decided to strip my membrane - At this point, I had told myself that I probably was not going to have a baby until the end of the month, just to keep myself from being dissapointed when I went home yet again, with no progress.

Monday night I was definitely contracting, but not super regular - yet I could NOT sleep. I paced around the house from 1am - 3am just thinking, trying to make myself tired enough to sleep - finally goint back to bed a little after 3 - only to get up at 5:15 for our morning walk. On the way to work I started feeling crampy - but still nothing I would consider painful, so I drove to work - timing the "cramps" at about 5 minutes apart. They continued all morning - and around lunch time they were about 4 minutes apart and I decided I should call the doctor to see if she wanted me to come back in again. Instead, I was told to be at the hospital in an hour. I asked if that was really necessary - I needed to go home, get my bags, wait for Nate to get home (who was in Fernandina for the day)- and then maybe I could be there in 2 or 3 hours? Anita said - nope, find someone else to bring you - and please be here in an hour. Mom was at church, and said she would meet me at home and we could head over. I rushed home re-packed the bag for the hospital and packed the car - when mom got there I was definitely feeling more crampy, but still not really believing this was real labor - I told Nate he needed to leave work, that I was going to the hospital - but not to say anything until we knew for sure I would be admitted and this was REAL labor. He just kept saying, are you serious, for real? Are you sure? I'm so flustered. I'm no where near home. I'm training someone. I'm so flustered. ha!

When we got to the hospital, I went to the desk to check in (during our l&d classes, they told us we would be taken to a room and checked before being admitted - and if we would be sent home for false labor it would happen before we were given an actual room -so I assumed this is the process I would be following) Instead - I was sent directly back to room 16 - and told a nurse would be in shortly with some paperwork. My response was - "uhhh - so am I being admitted to have this baby?" Apparently the answer was yes.

The nurse came in, filled out my information (I begged for ice chips already) and then hooked me up to monitors to see how far apart the contractions were - still 3-4 minutes. Nate arrived at the hospital about an hour later, and things were still the same. We decided to go ahead and let everyone know we would be having a baby - but according to the doctors - it would be early morning but hopefully before sunrise (around 10-12 hours from this point) so no need to rush or come visit.

When they finally let me walk a little - Nate and I walked for an hour, came back - spoke with the doctor about an epidural - in case I changed my mind about trying to go natural - and waited to be checked again. I was almost 6.

Anita came over after her patients for the day were done and told me she would probably break my water- because until I was feeling pain and stronger contractions - I probably wouldn't progress more than this. "Once we break your water it will still be about an hour per centimeter and then another hour or so of pushing." (Oh. boy. This could be a long night for someone who is used to going to bed before the sun sets!) She was planning on going home (to St. Augustine) to check on her daughter and then coming back once it was closer to time. She said she would be back with someone in a bit and then she would go check on what she needed at home. She told mom to go ahead and go home - eat dinner and we would call her and dad once we knew we were going to be having her shortly.

Around 7:45 she came back and broke my water. THAT was the wierdest sensation EVER. Kind of felt like a water balloon that was inside of you had just been popped. She left the room and 2 minutes later - the party started. Or not so much. I felt that first REAL contraction - what I was expecting the rest of them to feel like and I think I sat straight up in that bed - looked at Nate (sitting across the room playing on the ipad just hanging out) and said - Oh. My. Gosh. Now THAT hurts.
When the first one was over - Nate must have seen the panic in my eyes because he was sitting on the bed at this point saying - now remember the breathing we learned - you just have to stay calm - you can do it. You are tough. I said "I think I'm going to be sick" "No, you can do it!" "NO! I think I'm going to be SICK! Get me something to throw up in!" Then BOOM - second contraction - Breathe Breathe Breathe my ba-hiney. That hurts. As soon as it was over - I got sick. Then contraction. Then sick. Then contraction. Then sick. There was no time to catch my breath in between contractions and throwing up - that is when I started to panic - I can't do this! Get some medicine! Call the nurse! Call my mom - tell her to come back! -- Nate, bless his heart, cool as a cucumber on the outside - yet looking like a deer in the headlights if you REALLY looked at his eyes. He called the nurse, who came in and saw I had pulled all the monitors off and then told me that I could not get up (I was begging to be able to move - I figured if I was not laying down I might could find a more comfortable position) until they monitored the baby's hear rate for at least 10 minutes - then she said I could get up. I had already told them to try to talk me out of medicine if at all possible. And she did a good job - but she did tell me if I was given anything through my IV that the epidural team would be very hesitant to give me an epidural - so I opted out of the IV meds for the moment. She hooked me back up and said - Give me 10 minutes of laying still and good baby hear rate monitoring and then I'll let you walk. Those 10 minutes never ended. At least I didn't think they would. Contractions, getting sick - every 2 minutes for 10 minutes. When she finally came back in I was bawling, I can't do this! I need the medicine! I think I need to push! (It had only been about 45 minutes and I knew at this point I could NOT do this until 5 a.m. - there was No. Way.) When she heard me say I needed to push, she said - that's a good sign - you are probably progressing - let me check - oh boy. Big. Mama. Contraction. I mean - BIG. MAMA. I cried. She pressed the nurses call button - and I heard "I need a baby cart, baby medicine, someone page Anita - we are ready to have a baby" - then she looked at me and said - "Honey, you are 9 1/2 and you can push if you want to - I can call for the epidural if you want, but you can have this baby out before they get here and I don't think you could sit still for it anyway - so push if you want to." - and I did.

The room changed over so fast, there were nurses everywhere - lights and people talking - and all the while Nate kept saying "you can do it - you are doing great - you are having our baby!" And about 15 minutes later, heard - one more push, and then heard them say - "She is here! I looked at Nate and have never seen him happier! and all I could say/cry is - that's my baby! THAT is my baby!" They laid her on my chest and I fell in love. Absolute head over heels LOVE. This little person, this little human that had been inside of me for 9 months was now laying on my chest, looking at me, here mom, for the first time. I died. I just could have died right there. It is a feeling I cannot put into words.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Weekend Happenings

This past weekend we actually had a little bit of time to relax...or did we? I can't remember! Ha!

I do know, I was able to do a few things I have been wanting to do, so even though it might have been wiser to have taken a nap or done some laundry -- we didn't! :)

Here are a few pictures from this weekend.

I baked yeast bread. It finally turned out. This was attempt #3.
It is still a little dense in my opinion - but practice makes perfect! :)
Don't you love how "evenly divided" the bread was between loaves? Ha!

I made two cute little onsies for Skylar. One Florida State and one christmas -- this was the extent of my craftiness this weekend due to mild gluegunphobia (yes, it is a real fear) - I still dont have fingerprints on my left hand....however - I resorted to sewing everything instead of glue...which is probably better in the long run anyway...

AAANND Nate's grandparents delivered a BEAUTIFUL high chair. Everyone knows how I love OLD things...and this was Nate's high chair (or his brothers or his sisters - more than likely they all used it at one time or another)....Nate's grandma sanded and painted it for me. I am SOO very thankful -- because if this project had been left up to me, I have a feeling it would still be in the garage next to the wall art project for the nursery I have been meaning to do/finish since we found out she was a girl...oh...I dont know...since July...
I can't wait to see her use this - how cute for her first birthday and smash cake....oh holy cow! Let's not rush it! :)

Hopefully this weekend I will get my bag packed for the hospital - her bag packed - and a last load of laundry done before she gets here. We also need to get the glider and put that together and we should be done with the nursery...minus that art project in the garage.....

I am really hoping the doctor tells me today that I have already started progressing a little bit - and hopefully she says she will be here a little early! We shall see!

:) Happy Thursday!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

MNF - Go Jags!

Nate's birthday weekend extravaganza came to a close with a tailgate party and the Monday Night Football game.

Thanks to the Jags for showing up and beating the Ravens. woohoo!

The weather was wonderful! A little chilly - but PERFECT for football! :)

We were in the top section - Row Z - so I was a little concerned that all the stairs might cause an early appearance for Skylar -- instead, all we got was a massive amount of swelling by the time I got home and all through the next day! Which kind of suprised me since we are still walking 3 miles a day very regularly -- it must have been the chicken wings, chips and salsa, crackers & cheeseball combined with the stairs? :) I could not resist all the yummy tailgate food -- and the salty-ness that it held! Mmmm salt! I could salt my salt these days! :)

Here are some pictures from Monday night! :) Enjoy. And just for the record. Though you cannot see it that well, I am pretty sure that Nate's "food baby" is still bigger than the real one I have! ha!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Nate's Birthday and Less than 5 weeks!?

We are almost exactly 1 month away from "D" day. (D is for Due Day - that's good enough for me...D is for Due Day la la la la la la....)

Can NOT believe it has happened so fast!

We had a FABULOUS weekend celebrating Nate's birthday! The big 2-5.

We had dinner, hung out with great friends, did a little shopping, went to the Zoo's Spooktacular and tonight we are going to the MNF game to support our Jaguars!

Nate has been one celebrated person - but I sure hope he soaked it up - because this time next year -- I am almost certain we will be a little more focused on a certain someone's ONE year birthday party and he might just get one day to celebrate - not an entire weekend! :)

Before we went to the zoo last night - we decided to take a belly shot update -- Sully and Lilo are definitely well aware that something is going on. There was a ton of tiny laundry done this weekend and we spent ALOT of time in her room organizing -- so they spent alot of time sniffing around and wondering what is happening I'm sure! :)

Anyway - during the belly shots - Sully was staring at my belly, then Lilo joined in - and of course, Sully gave Skylar a hug! ha! At the very end we finally got a shot of just "Skylar". She is definitely poking out there :)

Friday, October 21, 2011

Quick Little Update!

Skylar's bedding arrived! I couldn't wait to get it on the bed and Nate I think - was just as excited as I was! :) We moved all the presents and boxes and things that have yet to be put away just to see what it would look like (which means that the entire rest of the room was un-photograph-able ... is that a word?) but none the less - we got the bed together! :)

We also tried out the carseat -- with the cabbage patch of course -- and THIS made it feel so much more real. I am officially excited. Nate I think - is borderline giddy. It's so precious. :)

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Skylar's Party - Family Style

Skylar is one loved little girl!! I am so very thankful that there are so many people who already care about this little baby! It is hard for me to imagine that I could love her more than I already do - but I know that when she gets here this feeling will just be magnified even more!

Here are pictures from the most recent party to celebrate Skylar's arrival -- that hopefully - will be in a few weeks!

There was yummy food! Such sweet hostesses! Hilariously funny games (nursery rhyme charades - please note pictures above -- apparently I get my dramatics from mi madre!) and of course - Skylar was spoiled with adorable clothes, sweet blankets, diapers - including ones in the shape of a cake! - wipes, feeding and kitchen supplies, a car seat and my new breast friend...err.. a breast pump. :) ha!

Now, if her bedding would just hurry up and get here -- she would have just about everything a girl could possibly need or want! Except for the fact that we have been so busy her entire room is covered with boxes, gifts and bags -- we might should work on that! :)

Happy Wednesday! Here's to another night with Diane - the most hilarious child birth education teacher on the planet. I really hope this week Nate can keep from crying watching the birth of a placenta. :)


Tuesday, October 18, 2011


What is a babymoon?

More recently the term has come to be used to describe a vacation taken by a couple that is expecting a baby in order to allow the couple to enjoy a final trip together before the many sleepless nights that usually accompany a newborn baby.

Babymoon can also be used for a trip taken by a couple even before they get pregnant. As long as the trip is intended to be a final romantic fling before venturing into parenthood, the term babymoon applies.

Thank you Wikipedia.

Don't you love that it sounds like once you take this LAST FINAL trip as a couple - you will have a baby and your life will be OVER? I just can't wait. :) ha!

Nate and I had a baby-babymoon this past weekend. We didn't go far - but we DID go to one of our favorite places. Fernandina Beach. We didn't get there until around 5 on Friday - so the weekend felt EXTREMELY short - but it was still so nice to be AWAY even if it was just for two nights.

The weather was BEAUTIFUL!! Saturday there was a car show downtown - which Nate was thrilled about - and honestly, I could have cared less - I was away from the house, enjoying the sunshine - holding hands with my hubby. What could be better? Oh yes, did I mention that even Nate has come to enjoy the little antique stores there as well? He would probably never admit it - so I will go ahead and do it for him. :) He got his car fix and I got my shopping fix. :)

We also had our maternity pictures taken with the always fabulous Jen Mosley -- love that lady! Thankfully, she did mostly belly shots and eliminated the need to show my swollen chipmunk cheeks and nose! :) If you know of any brides that want a super fun chick to take their wedding pics - she is your girl! Jen's Site.

We didn't take any pictures - except this one that Nate snapped with his phone. I sure hope that we get better at that when the life-ending child arrives. :)

Hope everyone else had an awesome weekend.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Skylar's Second Super Shindig

How is that for alliteration??

Here are some pictures from the awesome shower thrown for Skylar by two of the best "aunts" this girl could every ask for -- the decorations were so adorable - and I am pretty sure no detail was left off -- this was a "pinterest" worthy party! :) for sure.

THANK YOU Beka and Emily! I was talking to Nate the night after this party, about just how awesome it is to have girlfriends that I literally was in diapers with - that to this day are my closest friends. I am so very truly blessed - and this sweet baby has NO IDEA how blessed SHE is to inherit such wonderful godly influences in here life. I could not be more thankful!

There were a TON of ladies at this shower and each one of them holds such a special place in my life. I can't wait for Skylar to meet them all.

On another note - we have finally hung a few things on the wall in her room - (I still have to make one big project for the wall over her bed) - and I did my first load of baby laundry tonight. I'm not sure why that made it all seem a little more real to me. :) But I am definitely feeling a little -- i mean *LITTLE* more ready for her to be here. She still has a little while to "bake" though! :)

:) Off to help Nate in the nursery - he wanted to "build" the pack-n-play - and judging from the sound of the crash that just came from that direction -- he probably needs some help reading the directions! :)